So today is the big day. My last day of 23. I already forget how old I am most days, just let me double check my numbers .. yes 23, 24 tomorrow. Maybe I can say something alone the lines of, here is to my year 24, let us hope it is better than all of the others!
I think that it was spent well. I was determined, really determined to go out and we did just that. My husband and I spent the day out in town and looked at so many shops. It didn't take me long to feel tired and by the time we got home I was worn out and had to have a nap.
So, town was busy and I felt uncomfortable before I even went out my front door. I kept telling myself that everyone I was looking at was doing just the same as us, shopping. As for shopping I might be a bit of a lame shopper to some as my first step was two more books to add to my never ending collection and can I just say that I am running out of room and I am considering clearing out a space in my closest to fit more if that needs to be. I enjoy it though, every moment looking through the next book that will have my attention, even after I have read the last page. It really is the anticipation from browsing, to buying to reading and then remembering.
We took our time walking around and I noticed this shop, selling tea and tea related things and I fell in love! I bought some loose leaf teas and I was so happy because I was on the look out for just that for so long but all that I could find in the grocery stores were loose powdered teas and it just isn't the same quality. I got the plain old black tea and green tea. I am going to have a cup of green tea tonight and it is the anticipation that comes with preparing something that you will enjoy that makes it taste all the more better!
Also got a few new pieces of clothing but I am hoping that I can wear it. I have the worst body issues and it seems to show in everything that I wear at the moment. I have a ways to go but maybe I should look at my body in art form, wearing things that express how I feel and who I am and maybe even the kind of person that I would like to be. I suppose that at the moment I am already showing how I feel with what I wear. Completely covered up = self conscious.
I never did fill my prescription for my happy pills. I was in the store and I could have done it but I backed out and said that I wanted to think about it some more. I don't feel able to get up that step just yet but I am going to keep looking up what exactly fluoxetine is and what is does and maybe when I know it inside and out it could be more possible to give it a try.
Over all it was a good day and it wasn't an ocd filled day for once. Now for some pre birthday cake before actual birthday cake! What can I say, I have a terrible sweet tooth and in a way I hope that ocd can ruin that for me so losing weight can be a possibility!
Hi Maggie!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to you!
Yes, medication is a big step so take your time getting to know fluoxetine. I think it's called Prozac here in America.
I also love tea and love everything about the ritual of looking forward to a cup, preparing a cup and savoring every sip of that cup.
-Elizabeth (A.K.A. "Lady Delphinium) from
http://babysteppingit.blogspot.com/
HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :]
ReplyDeletePs, is that you on the sidebar? if so.. PRETTY!!!
Hope you had an awesome birthday and you take that med WHEN and IF you are ready to! I just googled it and realized it was prozac! Thats what I take at the moment and its been good for me :]
Thank you both of you for the birthday wishes, that was so nice to pop online to see!
ReplyDeleteLady Delphinium, do you have any tea to suggest? I am always on the lookout for something new!
Fage, That is indeed myself on the sidebar :)
It is so helpful to hear how medication has or hasn't worked for some. I am afraid to take it for so many reasons but knowledge is power and OCD hates knowledge very very much!
My current favorite tea is Taylors of Harrogate's Scottish Breakfast Tea. I love how bold and strong it is.
ReplyDeleteHere is a link to what it looks like (note: I usually only pay about $6.00 at the grocery)
http://www.amazon.com/Taylors-Harrogate-Scottish-Breakfast-50-Count/dp/B000F3WSBQ/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1313941206&sr=8-1
Lady Delphinium-