Thursday, 18 August 2011

A Very Merry UnBirthday To Me To Who? To Me!

So today is the big day. My last day of 23. I already forget how old I am most days, just let me double check my numbers .. yes 23, 24 tomorrow. Maybe I can say something alone the lines of, here is to my year 24, let us hope it is better than all of the others!

I think that it was spent well. I was determined, really determined to go out and we did just that. My husband and I spent the day out in town and looked at so many shops. It didn't take me long to feel tired and by the time we got home I was worn out and had to have a nap.

So, town was busy and I felt uncomfortable before I even went out my front door. I kept telling myself that everyone I was looking at was doing just the same as us, shopping. As for shopping I might be a bit of a lame shopper to some as my first step was two more books to add to my never ending collection and can I just say that I am running out of room and I am considering clearing out a space in my closest to fit more if that needs to be. I enjoy it though, every moment looking through the next book that will have my attention, even after I have read the last page. It really is the anticipation from browsing, to buying to reading and then remembering.

We took our time walking around and I noticed this shop, selling tea and tea related things and I fell in love! I bought some loose leaf teas and I was so happy because I was on the look out for just that for so long but all that I could find in the grocery stores were loose powdered teas and it just isn't the same quality. I got the plain old black tea and green tea. I am going to have a cup of green tea tonight and it is the anticipation that comes with preparing something that you will enjoy that makes it taste all the more better!

Also got a few new pieces of clothing but I am hoping that I can wear it. I have the worst body issues and it seems to show in everything that I wear at the moment. I have a ways to go but maybe I should look at my body in art form, wearing things that express how I feel and who I am and maybe even the kind of person that I would like to be. I suppose that at the moment I am already showing how I feel with what I wear. Completely covered up = self conscious.

I never did fill my prescription for my happy pills. I was in the store and I could have done it but I backed out and said that I wanted to think about it some more. I don't feel able to get up that step just yet but I am going to keep looking up what exactly fluoxetine is and what is does and maybe when I know it inside and out it could be more possible to give it a try.

Over all it was a good day and it wasn't an ocd filled day for once. Now for some pre birthday cake before actual birthday cake! What can I say, I have a terrible sweet tooth and in a way I hope that ocd can ruin that for me so losing weight can be a possibility!


  1. Hi Maggie!

    Happy Birthday to you!

    Yes, medication is a big step so take your time getting to know fluoxetine. I think it's called Prozac here in America.

    I also love tea and love everything about the ritual of looking forward to a cup, preparing a cup and savoring every sip of that cup.

    -Elizabeth (A.K.A. "Lady Delphinium) from


    Ps, is that you on the sidebar? if so.. PRETTY!!!
    Hope you had an awesome birthday and you take that med WHEN and IF you are ready to! I just googled it and realized it was prozac! Thats what I take at the moment and its been good for me :]

  3. Thank you both of you for the birthday wishes, that was so nice to pop online to see!

    Lady Delphinium, do you have any tea to suggest? I am always on the lookout for something new!

    Fage, That is indeed myself on the sidebar :)

    It is so helpful to hear how medication has or hasn't worked for some. I am afraid to take it for so many reasons but knowledge is power and OCD hates knowledge very very much!

  4. My current favorite tea is Taylors of Harrogate's Scottish Breakfast Tea. I love how bold and strong it is.

    Here is a link to what it looks like (note: I usually only pay about $6.00 at the grocery)

    Lady Delphinium-


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