Wednesday, 9 November 2011

OCD, Weather, Guilt ... Nope! No guilt here today!

I wonder if the weather plays much of a part in how we are feeling. I often feel the effects of damp weather on my joints thanks to Fibromyalgia Syndrome! But when it comes to moods or the severeness of OCD from one day to another. I like the colder weather even though my joints ache and makes an awful creaking noise when I get up too quickly. I like the rooms slightly darker, with mysterious looking shadows covering the walls and furniture. I also like that a cup of hot chocolate has never tasted so delicious! Books are read differently, instead of being taken outside to enjoy the heat of the sun I end up taking them into a little corner of the couch, under the light a blanket and a hot drink, any kind of drink so as long as it is hot and caffeinated!

I have had books on my mind over the last few weeks and finally I have allowed myself to have something that I wanted for a long time. Can a long time be a matter of months? I wanted a kindle but for so long I just didn't allow myself to have that kind of money spent on myself. I always feel guilty if I spend too much on myself, whether it is clothes, shoes or a gadget of some kind but it needs to stop. I can't feel guilty for having something that I enjoy and boy do I ever enjoy this magical little device. Don't get me wrong, it could never replace books but it has opened me up to a world of books that I wouldn't have read and it is a vast and great world out there!

I refuse to feel guilty. Instead I coo with glee each and every time I pick up this little device. 83 titles downloaded for free. I am currently reading Jane Austens Northanger Abbey and loving it! OCD you will not win this round with your guilt trips.


  1. There is a condition called seasonal affective disorder (S.A.D.) that affects a person's mood mainly during the winter months and stimulates depressive symptoms. I'm like you though and enjoy the winter evenings, particularly the autumn.

    I'm glad you're not letting OCD guilt you - Everybody deserves to treat themselves sometimes and if reading is your passion, then why not enjoy your Kindle. It'll provide an amazing distraction from your OCD anxieties too :)

  2. I enjoy the darker, cooler days as well. They just seem more magical in a way. You are right. There is nothing like curling up with a good book and a cup of tea. One of my favorite things. : )

  3. I am so glad you coo with glee over your new gadget :-)

    Northanger Abbey is my favorite Jane Austen book-- it is such a pager turner! Let me know what you think after you finish reading it-- we can discuss.

    About colder months-- you and me both! I love the cold dark winter. Like Kat, I believe winter is a rather magical time of year. I love snow. I love that you can star gaze and moon gaze at 6 o'clock in the evening.

    I love long cozy evenings when the sun sets at dinner time and I can hide out with a good book and a cup of tea for hours until bed time.

    How far are you into Northanger? You have probably noticed on my Snowflakes and Stardust blog that I have the first sentence of Northanger quoted on my side bar, for it is such a great first sentence!


  4. Magical is definitely the right word to describe these long winter nights!

    I am about halfway through chapter 8 and just loving it but I need to have complete silence when I am reading this one because if I become even somewhat distracted while reading I end up lost in the pages and I end up going back to the start of the chapter. I just don't want to miss anything.

    I spotted this passage and wanted to share,

    'To be disgraced in the eye of the world, to wear the appearance of infamy while her heart is all purity, her actions all innocence, and the misconduct of another the true source of her debasement, is one of those circumstances which peculiarly belong to the heroine's life, and her fortitude under it what particularly dignifies her character. Catherine had fortitude too; she suffered, but no mumur passed her lips.'

  5. Yes! Catherine is such an awesome heroine and I admire her for so many reasons-- her fortitude being one.

  6. You've inspired me. I'm going to curl up under a blanket on the couch with a hot drink and a good book!

  7. ocdtalk, I hope that you enjoy your book! I am always tempted to make a full pot of tea when I curl up with a book, you can never have too much of a good thing!

    What book are you planning on reading? I am always on the lookout to add to the list and would love a recommendation.

  8. Maggie--I'm glad you fought the guilt. Guilt can be such a habit for us with OCD! Happy reading!


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