You may think that the lack of posts on my part would be a great thing, a terrific thing, 'ah, her OCD has not been giving her anything to write about!'
Well, I am afraid that isn't so and the OCD still follows me everywhere I go and it taunts the heck out of me at every opportunity, which is every minute of each and every day and no it does not take any days off, not even the holidays.
I think more or less the way I can sum up how I feel since my last post - totally bummed out man-
God, the grief is endless, oh the sorrows, the pain, the agony that is in my head! Get out! Get out! Get the hell out of here! and when I begin to shout at my mind I wonder if it is really the neighbours hitting the wall as in to tell me to keep it down or would it be my OCD hitting the wall just for kicks?
Meh, either way - Happy Monday!
I think this is where my posts ends for today. I wanted to let you all know that I am still here and I still have all 10 of my fingers - They have not fallen off or gone awol. I am still here and still mad as a hatter - which in all fairness keeps each and every day new, fresh and exciting. If I could sell OCD I could market the hell out of it!
Ah, humour, you have not left me after all.
Oh, I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteOh no, never meant it as a 'feeling sorry' post, more of a sick humour ;)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you still have humour. I, too, have thought of aspects of mental illness that we could sell and be rich. For example, when we can't sleep, if we could bottle that and sell it to people who needed to wake up, and then when we can hardly stay awake and can sleep overtime, we could sell that to people with insomnia (huh, would we just be selling it all to ourselves, seeing as at least I would have both problems at different times?).
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry the OCD has been so bad. I AM glad to see though that you do still have your sense of humor. I have found being able to laugh at things to be quite helpful. Hang in there!!
ReplyDeleteYes, humor is still with you and it's a gift! I had to laugh--I too could market the hell out of OCD. . . if anyone wanted to buy it. . .my therapist told me to expect OCD will be there taunting me, that it's the mode of operation, and that the energy I put into being surprised and horrified that it was still there just made it worse. That was hard to accept and yet I did start noticing how my flailing around everytime the OCD showed up did make me exponentially more troubled.
ReplyDeleteYou, my friend, are awesome. I totally feel you; the pain, the anger, the depression, the anxiety...keep on fighting and being mad and sarcastic! It is the best non-drug remedy! ...kind of.
ReplyDeleteThanks OCD Girl!
ReplyDeleteHopefully the non drug remedy keeps in full stock, I wouldn't know what to do without it!